I was born December the 5th at 5:55 am And the moment I got here I knew everything I knew how I would live I knew what I would stand for And I knew the influence I would have I even knew how I would die But then I forgot I've spent my entire life trying to remember this Relearning who I am Told by my society, my community, media, even some family members That I was supposed to be a certain way And that there's something wrong with me if I didn't fit in with their ideals Along my journey i'd see glimpses of the true me Forever in conflict with my surrounding Recognizing my own reflection in various lovers, friends, family, mentors Various traumas forced me to realign with myself Rebalance myself Stumbling through trials, failures, accomplishments It was predestined that while navigating this confusing wilderness I'd stumble upon a hard absolute truth A first principle if you will That love, true unconditional love What we know as agape Is the foundation of my continued survival Its the key to my thriving in this World full of illusions and spiritually famished individuals Its something that must be found within True unconditional love for myself Compassion, kindness and patience for myself is what I found I learned how to silence my negative self talk I learned to celebrate myself rather than seeking validation from others This love, this Agape, it radiates out from me To others. It's my superpower It wasn't easy to get here, I had to sacrifice a lot I had to allow a part of myself die The part that took in all the lies that other peoples anxieties and narrative of who I am And I've had to exercise this muscle, its new found power Everyday I have to exercise this So I wrote this project for anyone struggling with loving themselves Any one caught in the throngs of heartbreak, addiction Maybe you're caught in a cycle of hurting other people Or hurting yourself Anyone feeling a conflict between their surroundings and the truth they hold within I wrote this for anyone struggling to see their own power Struggling to forgive themselves Not allowing yourself of move on, move up And be in your highest potential As a human being I don't have all the answers Only you have those I just hope as you listen to this That you'll consider the truth that you are deserving Of self love and healing I hope you find the double meaning that I've planted for you So that they may grow likes seed The fruit being courage and self reflection Somebody planted that seed in me When I was just a little girl growing up in Mississippi All I had was a soft voice and a big dream So I'm telling you now in case no one has You can conquer this I am lover, before I am an artist before I am a human I'm a lover first Love makes me weak, makes me cry, makes me cower It makes me brave enough to stand up for myself and others It makes me laugh makes me strong Love is life Love is death So this project is me coming to terms with my own mortality So that I don't leave anything unsaid The recurring theme in my life is love So whoever is listening to this When you are at your lowest Seek beauty If you can't find it in yourself Seek beauty in art, seek beauty in nature Seek beauty in a child's smile Seek the complexities of life Run toward your challenges knowing that there's nothing you can't conquer This world is big And abundance with love, light, beauty These gifts are free to us Even autumn leaves Don't die in vein There's beauty in their pain I hope you find strength in my words My rhymes and know There is a reason you are alive So take a deep breath and And go find your reason

That's when I realized like how dangerous these people actually are Like they will make up complete lies about you And put it in actual news headlines bruh Like they tried to say I desecrated an American flag My protest was against white supremacy It was against the confederate flag Like let that sink in though But they tried their best to turn my friends against me My fans against me But their lies make me like a legend Because I fought against empire and I won What do you think when it comes to me? Where do you go when you run from me? Will you be there when they come for me? Do you realize what you've done to me? I'm on a road and its paved in gold I'm gentle inside but they say I'm bold I'm trying to balance my multiple talents I open my heart and they say it's closed Oh well oh well We living good we shining bright We hold the fire we slay the night We gave our soul we paid the price Oh well oh well So let them hate us from afar They aim at us like shooting stars We never changing who we are Oh well oh well We eat fire then breathe life No peace signs in these times We kill idols we free minds Oh well oh well So let them hate us from afar They aim at us like shooting stars We never changing who we are Yeah okay, all of my life I try to inspire But inside I'm dying I guess I'm a liar My head to the sky my feet to the fire My only desire healing humanity raising it higher There's pain in my purpose the day I expire That be the day I'm no longer inspired My body armor is made out of iron The weight of the world keeping me tired I'm praying to Juice praying to Peep Give me the power to speak I'm praying to Pac give me the courage To carry the torch when they aim for my heart Oh well oh well We living good we shining bright We hold the fire we slay the night We gave our soul we paid the price Oh well oh well So let them hate us from afar They aim at us like shooting stars We never changing who we are Oh well oh well We eat fire then breathe life No peace signs in these times We kill idols we free minds Oh well oh well So let them hate us from afar They aim at us like shooting stars We never changing who we are Yeah, okay I built her a home and I waited here A lump in my throat but I say it clear She taste the poison as soon as she kiss me I took her spirit returned it with interest The moral of story is simple If you're not careful the fame and the money will kill you Face all your issues handle addictions God will not put you in any position That you cannot handle All of my idols have died of afflictions Killed by the pressure of fans and ambition I don't think anyone's listening Oh well oh well We living good we shining bright We hold the fire we slay the night We gave our soul we paid the price Oh well oh well So let them hate us from afar They aim at us like shooting stars We never changing who we are Oh well oh well We eat fire then breathe life No peace signs in these times We kill idols we free minds Oh well oh well So let them hate us from afar They aim at us like shooting stars We never changing who we are Cause you know in your heart What's right and what's wrong So say that shit with your chest You don't want to die tomorrow Wondering what you should have did Or what you should have said To make the world a better place

I'm just so grateful, my life it going incredible I'm grateful for everything I've been able to achieve you know They say you aim for the sky man Been like that since I was a little child man Let's go, here's my story Tender age of three My daddy sat me on his knee He said baby girl tell me what you want to be I said that I wanted to teach the masses My writings read aloud to all of the college classes And maybe lead a revolution He looked at me and laughed Sat back and took a sip from his glass Said the destiny I chose was the loneliest path Said I’ll have a lot of lovers but the love will never last Fast forward I’m going places thought I’d never seen Penthouse vibing with legends I thought I’d never meet Baddies in back room slithered off the hennessy Asking for a selfie and a number they can send to me I dedicate this to my enemies They tried disrespecting and discredit me All cause I embody what they’ll never be A servant to my higher self A balance in my energy Yeah, plus my heart is in the right place Dream big, take risks, high stakes Love hard, live now, why wait? Aye! Hop inside ma Let’s see which way the night takes us Yeah, on my tombstone I want it to read She lived hard but she loved harder you know? All day Shooting stars Lighting up the night sky Baby we was born at the right time My anger and my pain washed away Baptized in the moonlight From the night sky Yeah, we lighting up the night sky Baby we was born at the right time My anger and my pain washed away Baptized in the moonlight From the night sky Yeah yeah and I know I deserve it Held on to my purpose when the future was uncertain I could see the vision even when that shit was blurry Sleeping on my boy’s couch feeling like a burden Even when my ex was running from me Even when supremacists was coming for me Back when I ain’t have a ton of money Wasn’t nobody checking on me Until they wanted something from me I would pray to god and hope she put these blessings on me Yeah yeah and she really did it What’s the point of living if you don’t push it to the limit? Always been myself I ain’t ever need no gimmick First to see the vision so they call me the beginning Yeah, now I know why my mama named me that First of my name, last of my kind Until you hit rewind, go! Shooting stars Lighting up the night sky Baby we was born at the right time My anger and my pain washed away Baptized in the moonlight From the night sky Yeah, we lighting up the night sky Baby we was born at the right time My anger and my pain washed away Baptized in the moonlight From the night sky

They say that grass don’t grow in the shade But they never met me Say my style ain’t got no lane So they slept on me She asked me what changed I told her everything but my name She know I’m strange No name brand I ain’t rocking no chains Six bad ones all want sex Yeah and they all gonna text My new girl getting them Netflix checks That ain’t no flex boy they know I got next All day They say that grass don’t grow in the shade But they never met me Say my style ain’t got no lane So they slept on me Now everyone I know that got a little change Place bets on me On me, place bets on me Now they wanna place bets on me On me, I remember when they slept on me Now everyone I know place bets on me On me, now I guess they see, they see Now they wanna place bets on me Now everyone I know place bets on me I remember when they slept on me She asked me what’s good yeah Buc city I’m repping my hood Blew up like they knew I would Still came back and rebuilt from a flood Yeah I came back and I took a flag down Brave heart bitch I don’t ever back down My enemies aim straight for the crown And they wonder why they plans don’t ever pan out She want me so she gonna act out She wanna start a fight till I pull a strap out Pull a strap out they I blow her back out Make her come ten times, then she pass out She count sheep, I can’t sleep Quarter million deal on deck next week Threats on my head for the shit that I speak With a vest on my chest this sht ain’t for the weak, lil boy! They say that grass don’t grow in the shade But they never met me Say my style ain’t got no lane So they slept on me Now everyone I know that got a little change Place bets on me On me, place bets on me Now they wanna place bets on me On me, I remember when they slept on me Now everyone I know place bets on me On me, now I guess they see, they see Now they wanna place bets on me Now everyone I know place bets on me I remember when they slept on me She asked me what’s next You just gonna have to wait and see baby Yeah

Whoo! Yeah! Don’t lie, we both grown don’t waste my time Don’t lie, this my heart no cross no lines If it ain’t love just say so If it’s just sex just say so If you ain’t out we can lay low What your man don’t know, how the saying go? I’m not a toy to be played with Unless I tell you, you can use me You say you wanting to be with me Only just serves to confuse me I snatch your hair give you Os from the back You leave my presence and fien to come back My body reacts to your scratches I’m Biting your neck at the height of climax yeah You are not out to your family and friends Unhappy marriage with him you pretending I cannot judge you girl this is your journey But saying you love me eventually hurts me You are not ready to live in your truth As much as you want to girl you cannot choose me You are not free so you’re full of despair But putting these thoughts in my head isn’t fair Don’t lie, we both grown don’t waste my time Don’t lie, this my heart no cross no lines If it ain’t love just say so If it’s just sex just say so If you ain’t out we can lay low What your man don’t know, how the saying go? I’m not a toy to played with Unless I tell you to abuse me You say you wanting to be with me Only just serves to confuse me Gripping your waist while you’re licking my face We’re drenched in the bed from you rsweat I can taste it You live a life mediocre and fake Just to save face, girl what a waste Pulling my strings and you’re feeding me hope Thinking one day we can date but we won’t Girl I got lovers who pray for my time They take me on trips and they beg to be mine Girl I ain’t hurting, just speak to me real It took a lot for me to make it here Living authentically, facing my fears So go do the work, I’ll be waiting here Don’t lie, we both grown don’t waste my time Don’t lie, this my heart no cross no lines If it ain’t love just say so If it’s just sex just say so If you ain’t out we can lay low What your man don’t know, how the saying go?

I don’t want to fight I just want to love I don’t want to die, everybody does I don’t want to cry but it’s building up I want to open up but I can never trust I just want peace, there's a lot of hate I just want real, there’s a lot of fake In this world of mine, there’s a lot of pain Cut me at the root, let my blood drain So I’m staring at the overpass High hopes die fast still I got to laugh My foot on the gas try not to crash Holding tight to my joy knowing it’ll never last But I never lose faith She say “the moon’s in a new phase” And that’s why my mood change It’s a new world a new way I never lose faith She say “the moon’s in a new phase” And that’s why my mood change It’s a new world a new way It’s a new way Find a better way It’s a new way Yeah yeah Write another song, make another painting Got a lot to say and I’m sick of waiting I got a big heart but I ain’t a saint All my mistakes, I would never change them A rose doesn’t grows from regret and shame It needs a lot of dirt and a lot of rain Put me in the glass, put me on display Cut me at the root, let my blood drain Now I’m staring at the overpass High hopes die fast still I got to laugh My foot on the gas try not to crash Holding tight to my joy knowing it’ll never last But I never lose faith She say “the moon’s in a new phase” And that’s why my mood change It’s a new world a new way I never lose faith She say “the moon’s in a new phase” And that’s why my mood change It’s a new world a new way It’s a new way Find a better way It’s a new way Yeah yeah I don’t want to fight I just want to love I don’t want to die, everybody does I don’t want to cry but it’s building up I want to open up but I can never trust I just want peace, there's a lot of hate I just want real, there’s a lot of fake In this world of mine, there’s a lot of pain Cut me at the root, let my blood drain

No introduction My mouth gonna say it as soon as I see it I'm feeling squeamish Thanks to my angels I conquered my demons My head to the sky, my feet on the cement I'm walking alone Shout out to Nia, shout out Imani Shout out to Asia, shout out to Auzzie Shout out to Nadia, Marcelitte too Shout out to Stephy for talking me through it You knew I needed to go it alone And grow on my own Respected yourself and protected your thrown All of my lovers who helped me along All of the pieces to add to the puzzle A couple of headaches to add to the struggle Took off my muzzle Speaking the truth every chance that I get Took off my vest, advanced to the threat Showing no fear, I'm cashing these checks Flying in private I'm catching a jet It's funny how life opens up after pain When I was in it I thought I would die Took it in stride I told my mama that I would survive it The pressure to live up to all that I promised I feel like Adonis So much desire and beauty around me It got me surrounded Got a new girl and its curtains for me Mami a muslim she perfect for me She rep Somali she working on me I take her shopping that Birkin on me Trying my best to be radically honest Dodging the labels they placing upon us I try my best I ain't making no promises Putting my heart on pedestal It's nothing less than a miracle That I ain't locked in a cell I think I'm immortal from what I can tell But its funny how life is a jail I'm learning to face all my problems Without any pills or no bottle You live and you learn you evolve yeah I'm ready to follow my calling I'm ready to follow my calling Said I'm ready to follow my calling Yeah just take it, and run it back again yeah No introduction My mouth gonna say it as soon as I see it I'm feeling squeamish Thanks to my angels I conquered my demons My head to the sky, my feet on the cement I'm walking alone Shout out to Nia, shout out Imani Shout out to Asia, shout out to Auzzie Shout out to Nadia, Marcelitte too Shout out to Stephy for talking me through it You knew I needed to go it alone And grow on my own Respected yourself and protected your thrown All of my lovers who helped me along All of the pieces to add to the puzzle A couple of headaches to add to the struggle Took off my muzzle Speaking the truth every chance that I get Took off my vest, advanced to the threat Showing no fear, I'm cashing these checks Flying in private I'm catching a jet It's funny how life opens up after pain When I was in it I thought I would die Took it in stride I told my mama that I would survive it The pressure to live up to all that I promised I feel like Adonis So much desire and beauty around me It got me surrounded Got a new girl and its curtains for me Mami a muslim she perfect for me She rep Somali she working on me I take her shopping that Birkin on me Trying my best to be radically honest Dodging the labels they placing upon us I try my best I ain't making no promises Putting my heart on pedestal It's nothing less than a miracle That I ain't locked in a cell I think I'm immortal from what I can tell But its funny how life is a jail I'm learning to face all my problems Without any pills or no bottle You live and you learn you evolve yeah I'm ready to follow my calling

You made an impact I can't articulate in text The lessons you taught me like college intensive The letters you gave me I keep as momentum The letter I gave you, you gave it back I wish you had read it my heart was attached I wish you could separate trauma from facts I thought that we could be friends I'm trying to stomach the thought That seeing each other again Is not in the stars its not what you want Well wherever you are I'm wishing you laughter and love Your heart was the biggest that I ever witnessed I hope you protect it enough yep yep Your superpower is sensitive Don't ever let no one take it away or make you ashamed Its part of your purpose like part of your name Met with a smile remember that day? The child in you saw the child in me We decided to play and got carried away And I'll never be the same No I'll never be the same We may never meet again My heart closed I let you go My love died slow but I'll never forget about What we shared was something rare I'll always care girl, I'll never for get about Was it something I said? Was it something I did? To make you forget about us? It doesn't matter My heart closed I let you go My love died slow but I'll never forget about I know that the average can't understand it Love is transcended they can't comprehend it I pray for you like I pray for my family Why did you ghost, why did you vanish? I never thought you could do that to me You made it seem like we'd always be fine At your foundation I know that you're kind So how you don't care if I live or I die? Thought that we could be friends I'm trying to stomach the thought That seeing each other again Is not in the stars its not what you want Well wherever you are I'm wishing you laughter and love Your heart was the biggest that I ever witnessed I hope you protect it enough yeah Your superpower is sensitive Don't ever let no one take it away or make you ashamed Its part of your purpose like part of your name Met with a smile remember that day? The child in you saw the child in me We decided to play and got carried away And I'll never be the same Yeah I'll never be the same We may never meet again My heart closed I let you go My love died slow but I'll never forget about What we shared was something rare I'll always care girl, I'll never for get about Was it something I said? Was it something I did? To make you forget about us? It doesn't matter My heart closed I let you go My love died slow but I'll never forget about

Hello its Mary Ann the moon's in Sagittarius So I thought I'd call. How are you doing and where are you? Are you still in Georgia? And how is everything With this insane pandemic? Anyway call me if you get a moment And uh, hopefully we'll talk bye Love, it doesn't have to be romantic love Love, it doesn't have to be romantic love I still think its the most powerful force in the Universe Love, it doesn't have to be romantic love Love, it doesn't have to be romantic love I still think its the most powerful force in the Universe Not bow down to that negative chatter That negative self talk But really hold space for ourselves I just saw your GIF that's good I just trust feeling I trust whats happening in my body That radiates from you to other living things And people and friends and enemies But I've only gotten into serious relationships With people who I found it to be easy Self love and self compassion self love and self compassion The deepest pockets of joy we have no control over other people I've never really felt like that before I don't just do that for anybody Trying to hold a lot of space for that What its like to love without expectation of outcome Look at my faults and my flaws and not judge myself But just improve myself and work on myself Does it come natural for you to love without expectation of outcome? You know what? The universe is gonna do its thing And I'm gonna do my thing And it can bring out the best in people I feel like the right kind of love helps ascend people To who they are meant to be Love, it doesn't have to be romantic love Love, it doesn't have to be romantic love I still think its the most powerful force in the Universe Love, it doesn't have to be romantic love Love, it doesn't have to be romantic love I still think its the most powerful force in the Universe Enough respect and love to just let people go Your needs and wants were just different From other people's needs and wants Go if it doesn't feel aligned for them If it doesn't feel good for them Separating from people is hard especially If you like really love them And how scary that can be if you haven't arrived there What ever it is that you want in a relationship That's what you deserve like and you should make space for that That's why I called it a gamble I think no matter How good it feels, we are never that other person Because only they know what's good for them The domino effect of love is just wild, its so wild And its so multifaceted As if it is my own, as if it is, as if you are me I'm going to take care of you And then I return you to the Universe right? Whether you leave or you pass or your soul Just returns and the time that we had together It was my turn to experience you And it was your turn to experience me

Yep yep yo I was born in December Ima die in the winter When its all said and done How will ya'll remember me? How will ya'll remember me? Bay bay My verse so fire I don't need no hook added My girl so fine I can't even look at her Them boys on the block cocked make the hood scatter I'm a beast, say my peace, muthafuck some good manners I could never sell my soul just to climb a ladder I would rather die broke than to live in dirty palaces Words that they spoke with a mouth full of malice This a dead soldier's ballad yeah they got me ass surrounded They know I'ma call them out even on my last breath Cut me open ripping out everything I have left The narrative they selling it don't make no damn sense So how will ya'll remember me when I'm a past tense I was born in December I'ma die in the winter When its all said and done How will you remember me? How will you remember me? Bay bay I was born in December I'ma die in the winter When its all said and done How will you remember me? How will you remember me? Bay bay Tears on my face trace lines that I've crossed Aiming for the boss burn it down at all costs Was born in the snow heart cold from the frost Was once an optimist and now the hope is all lost We need more forces to battle the four vultures They leave us meager portions while hoarding our resources Beware the pale horses who ride into the horizon Realizing that they was lies as we strive to rebuild lives In the final hour they gon' bow to higher Til the medicine's no match for the pestilence that's devoured Notice how these cowards try to show a face of bravery The media is basically our generation's slavery I was born in December Ima die in the winter When its all said and done How will ya'll remember me? How will ya'll remember me? Bay bay Yep yep Yep yep

Pursued my education I ended up in debt In pursuit of happiness I ended up with less yeah I ain't tripping though my needs are always met But quickly I forget and so it's tatted on my chest My ancestors test I pass with flying colors My Nation up in flames see the pain of crying mothers My brother lives in fear try my best to lift him up And love him while he's here His ending could be near My Mama shedding tears cause my Daddy likes to roam And I'm my father's child so my lovers come in droves Tomorrow isn't promised but my future is a throne I bow to all my queens and then I walk this path alone The world is on my shoulders my spine in looking crooked I built my child's self esteem you broke her down and took it And I know I don't look it but I'm sensitive and fragile I'm covered up in scars the only armor for this battle I killed a thousand ponds who reinforce the bonds of chattel But couldn't reach the King I'm up the creek without a paddle yeah Keep my fist tight every lyric hit right Celebrate life so every night's a lit night I escaped the slaughter I'm Mississippi's daughter My energy is calmer but my rage is quite alarming Like these government monopolies wickedness foreign policies Made to benefit the rich while killing us with poverty I'm just speaking honestly for those of you who can't I'm spitting real since most of the these rappers ain't You still degrading women the images that you paint But say you for the people equivalent to a snake We bonded by these bullet holes body full of lessons That's how we eat our young belly full of blessings My boy should have died so i'm basking in his presence Saying breathe deep King they can never take your essence My girl stressing she's watching as I dies slow Loves me with her eyes closed peeking through a blindfold I'd rather die young than live a life with mind closed Cover up my casket with cheap liquor and five roses One for every fear that I've conquered Every ego I've demolished And milestones I've accomplished To this mic I'm a monster to the system I'm a threat To my elders I'm a champ to these youngins I'm a vet Aye! You are not alive You are not alive Until your spirit die Come out on the other side Looking at my life I might be immortalized Even my enemies recognize I'm fortified You are not alive You are not alive Until your spirit die Come out on the other side Looking at my life I might be immortalized Even my enemies recognize I'm fortified You are not alive You are not alive Until your spirit die Come out on the other side Looking at my life I might be immortalized Even my enemies recognize I'm fortified He was sentenced to a quarter life Got me thinking that there's more to life Yeah they know i'm fortified Forever i'm immortalized